Well, I talked to Paul yesterday, but only for the 30 minutes allotted to me. He can't call me more than that every day because his parents won't let him...and yes, his parents DO have that much control over him. He is 21 years old, however, he can't do anything with out their permission and approval. They drive him to work because he doesn't have a liscence, and they pick him up. he can't call me from home because apparently they don't like me. It doesn't matter that he has a calling card because he can only call me on his breaks, which are either 10 or 30 minutes long. it's been like this for about a week, and i feel like he doesn't know me anymore. actually, i've felt like he hasn't known me for awhile. He used to understand me better than anyone else. he knew my feelings and the way i would react to things, and he loved me. but lately i've been feeling like he doesn't even care. he still tells me that he loves me, but they're just words at this point. he doesn't do anything to prove it. i know he's working 2 jobs right now and trying really hard to pay his parents back, and the reason he said he's doing this is so he can leave again to come live with me, but i don't know if that's true anymore. I think he might only be saying that. I really don't know how he feels about me anymore or if he even cares if we're together. i'll be in california on monday, but i don't know if he'll even be able to see me, because he couldn't before. On another note, a really good friend of mine is really depressed because she'll be moving out of her house soon, and i don't think she really wants to. in fact, i know she doesn't really want to. she told me. i wish i could make her feel better, but i dob't know how. i mean, first of all, i'm in michigan, and she's in california...i'll see her when i get back and she said that she'll be happy about that, but i wish i could do more. i'll be helping her move, too, which should be interesting, but it won't be fun if i know that she's depressed about it. i do know, however, that when i get out there, i'm going to take her out and make her have fun and take her mind off everything that's going on. and she'll be doing the same for me. if she reads this, and she knows who she is, i want her to know that i LOVE her and that i'll ALWAYS be here for her, no matter what state i'm in at the time! On yet ANOTHER note, i've been trying to get in touch with other people from home that i haven't seen in awhile...one just called me today, and i don't know how i felt about hearing from her. we haven't talked in over 3 years, and i don't really know how it would be if we saw each other again. it would probably be ok because we used to be best friends, and it would be interesting to see how much of the person i knew is still there, but i don't know...it might be weird, too. there are about 3 people that i've tried to get in contact with that i haven't heard from, but hopefully they'll email me before i get out to cali...well, that's it for today...

Email from Elaine:
"Andrea has a nutang journal now?! You sick, sick sicky. I hope you're happy, having lured her to the dark side. Of course, the more exhibitionists you recruit to nutang, the better for voyeurs like me. "
» nikkipikkel on 2004-03-24 07:40:10

That was dumb
She won't be happy I mentioned her. . . Maybe she will. . . eh I hate your background- please change it. Other than that- MUAH- Luv ya 2!
» nikkipikkel on 2004-03-24 07:43:11

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